Frustrated

I am kind of panicking... Not completely sure why... I just feel heart sick. I know I should be okay with the idea of being alone my whole life. But that's so difficult, and I am not okay with it.

I love God... I love Him with all my heart soul and mind.. i love Him passionately and fully... it's not that i don't think He's enough for me.

It's that there is something in me that likes being needed....

I guess I haven't died to self... but... that's where i am.... frustrated...