Partly because they are difficult to throw away, because there is so much stuff. I am not talking about hoarding folks. Anyone who knows me well enough knows that I have a huge fear of having a hoarding disorder.
It's like this obsession we all have with holding onto our stresses. Because if we don't stress about something, then we don't care about it. If we don't care about it, then who will?
How messed up is that?
Yet, I know of a God who loves me, and wants me to clear out my life of sin and stress, and the best thing of all is that He wants to help me. Which means in order to really clean out my closet all I have to do is give this up to Him.
That used to be an easy concept for me to grasp. I think I even spoke to a friend about how it was difficult for me to see God's wrath, not God's mercy and love.
Yet, lately I have begun carrying my own baggage, and trying to close the door on the closet of life on my own. Letting all the crap stack up until it seems impossible to clean.
So, I just ignore the closet, until it really gets to me, and I have another mental break down.
I don't think we can understand God's love, because our own love is so flawed.
We can't really fathom what unconditional love is, because we don't have the ability to love someone completely unconditionally.
Maybe we can almost love someone unconditionally, but come on guys? You knows your love is flawed. At least I feel the flaws of my love for others. (another guilt moment)
I think I am okay with not understanding Him, but I think I need to chase Him and lean on Him more.
I want to be buried in Him, in His love. Because at the end of the day, I know He's not only the one who will clean my closet, He's the only one who can save me, save me from exactly who I am. Even after saving me from who I am, He loves who I am. It's allot to handle.
~Melissa
I think this is really true. Letting God take away all our mental crap is as bad or worse than getting rid of all that crap in our closet that we know we don't need but cling to anyway. That's kind of the whole problem in our lives, isn't it? Keeping pieces of our spirits away from God, because we somehow think we're fooling Him or something. When really giving it to God will cleanse us and free us from it all. He already knows, so just give it to him!
ReplyDeleteThis is so true. I know part of the issue for me about giving stuff up, is that it's a control thing. If we give up our stresses or fears or whatever to God, we're giving up control of the issue. Which means we don't know what will happen. Which isn't fun. At all.
ReplyDeleteBut in the end, it's always better when God's in charge. It's just really hard to remember that sometimes.