Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Defeat

So I attend college-which means that I have to write papers, and consider different discussion topics on a daily basis. A couple days ago I wrote prob. the worst paper I have ever written, on a topic I absolutely adore, for a prof. I really respect. Today I received my grade. It wasn't failing, not even really close to failing. Just around what I thought it would be. I was hoping there would be some hidden genius to my work. Some small light. No such luck.
Defeat.
I keep tasting defeat, today it was in the form of an essay, yesterday it was in a Glissade, tomorrow it might hide in another form. I might frame my defeat today, as a reminder. Yet I am very thankful that our creator does not define me by my moments of defeat.
So if you feel defeated this week, or like you have failed in some way... look on the bright side, Know that your faults do not define you. You have been redeemed.
Love,
Melissa

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

The Chameleon Prince

What if you spent your entire existence pretending to be someone you are not. Letting your tongue drip with honey as you seduce those around you. Letting vice become a part of you, ultimately stripping away your humanity.
This is something that has really bothered me lately. I just finished "Richard The Third," which is basically about this guy who spends his entire life doing this just so he can become king. Which does, for like two years? He also kills a lot of people, some innocent, and others less.
How could that be worth it? Would you trade your entire life for the pursuit of power? Only to loosely hold it in your hands, watching it wash away quickly. It just doesn't seem... valuable.
I am interested in power. I wouldn't be completely human if I wasn't easily tempted by the idea of being something greater than the weaker being I am. Isn't that how Satan talked Eve into eating the forbidden fruit? Which worked out really well for us...
The only power I want to be interested is so much more than power. A father who loves me, and wants to understand me. Because of that... I am greatly blessed.