You can have me...

I love these lyrics because they scare me... They really say very simply where I am right now, and at the same time where I want to be. It's called "You Can Have Me" by the sidewalk prophets. (never heard of them before this song... but LOVE it...) So this is my prayer of the week...

If I saw You on the street
And You said come and follow me
But I had to give up everything
All I once held dear and all of my dreams
Would I love You enough to let go
Or would my love run dry
When You asked for my life
When did love become unmoving?
When did love become unconsuming?
Forgetting what the world has told me
Father of love, You can have me
You can have me
If You’re all You claim to be
Then I’m not losing anything
So I will crawl upon my knees
Just to know the joy of suffering
I will love You enough to let go
Lord, I give you my life
I give you my life
When did love become unmoving?
When did love become unconsuming?
Forgetting what the world has told me
Father of love, You can have me
You can have me
I want to be where You are
I’m running into Your arms
And I will never look back
So Jesus, here is my heart
When did love become unmoving?
When did love become unconsuming?
Forgetting what the world has told me
Father of love, You can have me
You can have me
When did love become unmoving?
When did love become unconsuming?
Forgetting what the world has told me
Father of love, You can have me
My Father, my love
You can have me

Day Three/Four

Everything is going by way too fast. There are things that I wanted to do that are not going to happen, and things that I didn't expect to happen or get done getting done. I am so glad to have the time off of work.

I am having a hard time wanting to go back.

I think this is the first time I've been able to get so much school stuff together, and in order before a semester. I really still need to do laundry, and catch up with more people. But... It is what it is....

I am picking up a shift on saturday... so.... I'll technically have more vacation left.

Do not want to go back... blah

Melissa

Day Two

Today was one of those days that turns out wonderfully. Even though nothing planed goes as planned. I had a good theology discussion with Hannah about God's love. We wrote one of the most timeless pieces of music this generation has ever heard.

Pretty Epic...

hahaha Epic.

Day One

First day of the vacation has been somewhat successful.

It began very weak. Numerous complaints were filed to Hannah regarding the many stresses that have consumed my life. Why these stresses were of the utmost importance, and why I should not be forced to do laundry. Why I am unable to complete chores during my vacation.

I then cleaned my room (still need to vacuum), and bathroom.

I did fold a load of laundry. Although I fail to wash a single load today. It felt good, and freeing... until I wanted to wear this cute dress for my girls night.

Then Hannah's voice rang through my mind... reminding me to wash at least one load, and forcing me to make a silent vow of "tomorrow".

Girls night was wonderful. I love Manon, and Kelly. We had an excellent time at Blanc, target, and topping everything off with people watching at peach wave. I have decided that I do not want children for at least a little while. I feel like there should be some sort of test parents take, and then they can procreate. There are far too many evil minions running about the world. I feel like this could be prevented with some sort of an exam.

Because that wasn't enough, I finished today off with a girly movie, which I forced Andrew to watch with me. He was a willing captive. He's used to the torture by now. I am ALL girl.

Anyway.

Good Day.

God pours out so many blessings on days when I am at my whiniest. I am so glad that He has blessed me with friends who do not let me whine, play with me, and watch girly movies with me. I can't wait to spend some serious time with Him this week. I haven't done that in quite a long time.

Well it's off to bed with lil' old me.

Melissa Kay Starks (It felt like it had to be a professional signature)

Vacation With Me

I am taking a vacation.

At this point in my college carrier I have had no time to spend with friends. Something I regret very much.

I feel like people don't understand how much I truly love them, because I don't have time to hang out, or make a phone call. I am always on the run. Always at work. Never able to go outside my schedule.

I am stressed.

I am trapped.

I wish I could say that the one thing I do have is God, although this statement would be me trying to sugar coat things. Hoping that if I say something enough times it will be true.

Now I have this time to seek Him. Clean things. Mend relationships. Create something sustainable in my life.

That's alot to fit into the week.

Let's see if I can do it...

Meli